Sunday, November 28, 2010

The Outing


One thing I dream about often is my fish leaping out of the aquarium and flopping on the floor. I run to pick one of them up, and notice that there are fish kind of everywhere, in the corners, under the sofa. As I'm scooping them up and plopping them back into the water, I realize that I've got dozens and dozens of aquariums all over the house, and I've neglected them terribly. The water is dark and murky and half gone, and the fish are all sick and dying, and they're beautiful- amazing, rare specimens that I can't believe I'd forgotten all about and it makes me feel how you'd imagine.

Also, once I get them back in the water they tend to just kind of float up out of the water again and drift through the air and I have to push them back under water or they'll die.

Of course I know they're all going to die anyway after all that trauma.

But I have to try.


I'm going out into the woods again. One more day I don't have to work, I'ma spend it out of doors.


Coffee is hot and dark and strong this morning. And, shit, can I do me some art or what.

Run and tell that, home boy.





Anonymous Anonymous said...

i love your dream better than mine. mine was about bruce jenner (of all people) writing a book.

run and tell that, but leave the bruce jenner parts out.


9:52 AM  
Blogger 37paddington said...

That dream is incredibly vivid and revealing, of what I don't know. Somebody out there does know, if you believe dreams are windows to the subconscious. Yours is a bit turbulent and in your face right now, isn't it? Why is it that inner turmoil (I assume this from the distress you report feeling in the dream, and the beautiful dead fish and the water everywhere) so often produces such astonishing art. That dream is one of your artworks, perhaps waiting to be born.

I'm rather drawn to these girls. They look equal to anything, including, especially, rising tides.

Yes, I am so curious about your process, but mystery is good, too.

Be well, my friend.

10:39 AM  
Blogger Ms. Moon said...

This is so perfect in every way.
Rub a dub, dub, three girls in a tub
And who do you think they be?
A reader, a reader, another girl reader
Blind little girls, all three.

My beloved therapist told me that water equals emotion in such dreaming situations. Neglecting emotions until they send forth your feelings and pop out? At least they are beautiful, whatever it those fish represent.

10:46 AM  
Blogger Ms. Moon said...

it IS those fish represent.
You know.

10:47 AM  
Anonymous Hoodrich said...

I've been meaning to ask ... is all the art on this blog your own?

If so, good work, sir.

No scratch that.

Excellent work.

Love it.


1:26 PM  
Blogger Petit fleur said...

Great post and picture.

That dream does sound disturbing. I agree with Ms Moon that water generally refers to emotions... I've also heard it can refer to one's spirit as well.

Not an interpretation, but some thoughts to consider:

Many fish tanks. (Contained emotions... dark neglected or buried emotions perhaps?)

Part of you may be suffering as a result of the dark waters, as represented by the fish..

Also even though it was subtle, you did mention your house. Houses are thought of by some to represent the soul. So even though the dream was not focused on the house part, it was a presence. Interesting.

Then there is the ole "fish out of water" saying... perhaps there is something that you are feeling that way about. Or maybe feel that way in general lately?

Hope you enjoyed your coffee and your day.

5:10 PM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...


Something's wrong with you, girl. Bruce Jenner? I don't know.

your dream was weirder than mine.

6:38 AM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...


I'm always so happy to read your comments- they are wonderful and thoughtful.

My process? The short answer is I work in photoshop with source material I almost always take from my wanderings around the internet. I incorporate my own photographs on occasion, but mostly I just put together other stuff. It is digital collage, mostly. I try not to mess with the images too much, it's much more about the linking together of things that I think should have been together from the beginning. I work primarily by mood and lighting and oddness and just play around until something clicks.

That's it.



6:41 AM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...

Ms. Moon-

I think that dream is all about the anxiety of untended to obligations. Stuff that I forgot about.

Plus, I've killed a lot of fish.



6:45 AM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...

Mr. Criminal-

Yep. It's mine.

And thank you.

6:45 AM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...

Petit Fleur-

I like all those possibilities. A soul full of dark waters.

Sounds like me to me.



6:47 AM  
Blogger 37paddington said...

Dishwasher, the oddness is just exquisite. It takes your eye to bring to light what has coexisted all along. They are digital collages yet there is something so painterly about them. The stuff of dreams. Thanks for sharing this. I take it for the privilege that it is.

I want to tell you Namaste, but I don't want to be trite and copying. But Namaste, and I mean it in the very richest way.

11:08 AM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...


Thanks. And Namaste is never trite. Not when you say it.



5:26 PM  

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