Wednesday, November 09, 2005

on the horizon

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I am bone tired today and grateful for it. Today we had SWAT training and we
PT'd in the rain and shot in the rain and for ten hours I was wet and tired and
cold and practicing my killing skills. Hard to imagine a better day.

What's good:

my wife
my child
my job
my dogs
my home
my family
my appetite
my sleep
my sore body

What isn't so good:

behind on my writing
letting down someone who is counting on me
not meditating
not exercising enough
drinking too much
my fat belly
attachment to my ego

Blessed beyond reason, I still find ways to grump and moan and bitch and wrap myself around my own axle. Each small impediment becomes the day's drama, each imagined triumph feeds my ego and makes me feel important. But I have fun and I am learning daily how not to take any of this seriously. I read the other day that the way to banish the devil is to laugh at him. I'd say the same thing about ego.

Of course, I'm still a slave to mine.

Laurel sent me her pic today, so I'm going to get to work on a new collage piece for her.
Yay, Laurel!

I guess Jack's birthday was the other day, so Happy Birthday to you, Jacko!

If you have it in you, send a good thought my way. I'm sending all mine to you.




Anonymous Anonymous said...

damn, scott, i've already said a couple hurrahs elsewhere, but o brother, how i have missed you! welcome back, huzzah! huzzah! hallaloo! and you got a pic from laurel? oh lord, she must be losing her marbles now for sure. coragio, jim

1:28 AM  
Blogger jz said...


i could just lift your lists and put them in my files -- cause they apply to me as well.

just got a second dog -- an old man in our neighborhood passed away and left behind three beagles -- so now we have one -- Betty -- here a week and still suffering from the shock of it all -- a very loving dog, but an old man's dog.

glad to see you around.

go meditate.

9:44 AM  
Blogger LKD said...

Native, one must have marbles in order to lose them, no? (grin)

And Scott, hey, I'm always sending a positive thought your way, buddy. I figure you've got a whole lot of positive thoughts constantly being sent Scottwards if only because I believe in karma and you, sir, send out a whole heck of a lot of positivity. Sooner or later, it's gotta cycle back to ya.

Been missing you here in the land of blog, sir.

11:13 AM  
Blogger Keturah said...

Nice to have you back in the world of blogging. Your posts always pique my interest.



2:07 AM  
Blogger djuana said...

Dear Scott,

Greetings. Cyril Connolly said something like: Coming of age has to do with realizing people aren't dumber than you just because they're dead - something like that - smile.

Oh I will love to see a Laurel calloge, yes. Now weren't you suppose to give me a copy of the dj calloge? Drop me a line re that.

You know I still sort of hit this zone of amazement when I think about your life - the tuning of "killing skills" & then the love. See, that stuff is sort of Law & Order to me, being personally so far removed. But ego, yeah ego is in every life, grumpily doing it's 'takeover' thing - oh dear. Laurel's right about the karma - you is pulling points bigtime.

A big big hug to you & yours - good to see you posting here.

Bye bye for now


3:35 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...



I quote you:

"What isn't so good:

behind on my writing
letting down someone who is counting on me
not meditating
not exercising enough
drinking too much
my fat belly
attachment to my ego

I think we have a few more things in common as I try to get away from the PC and avoid facing any more etceteras.

Am heading into the fresh air of San Clemente.


11:56 AM  
Blogger 666poetry-finchnot said...

hi scott
glad you are back

thanx for the thots
/ you are love lee


12:26 PM  

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