Sunday, November 13, 2011

Savannah



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The thing is, you don't get to bargain with life. You are not allowed to say, "Okay, this far, but no farther." I mean, I guess you could say that, but it ain't going to help none. You make what room you can to accommodate whatever new conflagration arises and still maintain some hold on what you believe matters to you most, what's inviolable, and you draw the line there.


Unfortunately, this just serves to make your foolishness stand out in starker relief.





You best get out the way, cause that line is getting crossed.




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I don't know. I guess that a good measure of pain accompanies every necessary transformation. We want things how we want them. We want control, we want a voice, we want something done! But maybe a large part of that pain is from fear and resistance. Nothing new there.

Still, it feels like a revelation when it's happening to you.


Don't it.


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So, opening to it. Rolling with it. And keeping your eyes open for the slim little gap of daylight you might be able to jam into and pry open, so you can breathe for a minute while you try to think things through.

It's something to shoot for.


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I feel so damn crazy right now. That storm just keeps building, the dark clouds scudding lower and lower, all charged up with electricity and the sky gone dark green and a thousand miles between you and the nearest shelter.





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"Stahm's a-comin'"





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Namaste.



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15 Comments:

Blogger Angella Lister said...

grab a shingle and hang on tight. and just in case someone is listening i am praying so hard for your family, dear scott. i really am.

love,
angella

3:30 PM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...

Angella-

It's the same prayer we all of us need. We are none of us unique, nor non of us spared. It's just sometimes your turn at the top of the wheel, and sometimes its time to get ground down into the dirt at the bottom.

Whatever transpires, you will always be a light unto us, a blessing larger than you've a right to claim, but real enough to cling to in any storm.

You bless us, so damn many of us. You really do.


yrs-


Scott

3:44 PM  
Blogger Mel said...

Oh man, how you put it to words.

I hope you keep finding those slivers of light, and find plenty to hold to to keep you sane.

Your post reminded me of my favorite line from one of my most favorite movies.

"Biene el tormente.

What did he say?

He said a storm is coming.

I know."

I think of that little scrap of dialog a lot. Are you familiar?
The Terminator, at the very end, when Sarah is preparing for the coming apocalypse. I feel like that some days, and it's silly because you can't prepare for shit in this world, when you really think about it. All our preparations are just illusions of control because life is just crazier than we can imagine. We almost never see the storm coming until the lightning strikes.

Thanks to the powers that be for the gifts of art: words and music and images that soothe our ragged souls when all else fails.

Hang in there, friend. I'm hoping for calmer skies for you and yours.

5:28 PM  
Blogger Ms. Moon said...

I've done a lot of thinking today, Mr. Scott, and one of the things I thought about was how this world doesn't give one shit about what I think or how I feel.
Somehow, that comforted me. It's up to me. That picture says it all.
You know. Don't let go. Unless you can't hold on.
I just went and lit you a candle. The universe may not care but I do.

6:07 PM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...

Mel-


I love Sarah preparing for the apocalypse. I think she's got it right, as right as can be got.

God bless you and yours.

yrs-


Scott

6:44 PM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...

Ms. Moon-

you are right, this world don't give a shit about us.

it's too damn big for it.


the secret is that we can care for each other in the middle of the limitless destruction, that we can, and that we do.

you especially, and me, and all of us here.


yrs-


tearful

6:46 PM  
Blogger Radish King said...

That girl up there her forhead is in two parts and she knows what is going on behind her yet she chooses her sweater with the dingleballs on it and in fact she looks ready. I love her.
ox

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Keep breathing. In, out, repeat.

Thinking of you all.
Peace.

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