Sunday, July 11, 2010

At Gunderson's Farm, Summer 1939


If I can stop doing art and the woman on the verge can stop knitting for five damn minutes we aim to load up Lucy in the pickup and head down to the dog beach and run her ass silly. Then she can sit in the truck and gather herself while we eat elevensies at the Sea Shanty.

That is the plan.


Yesterday we picked up our new coffee table. My step-brother is a furniture maker who lives a few miles up the road. He makes stuff out of big slabs of redwood and cedar and I had him make us a coffee table, japanese-influenced trestle legs topped with a slab of cedar, capped on each end with clean milled pieces of cedar. It is a beautiful piece.

But I pulled the trigger on the commision without consulting the woman on the verge, which is a stupid, thoughtless thing to have done. Not typical of me, perhaps, but not unheard of, either.

It takes whatever pleasure I might have got from it and kind of edges it in guilt and remorse.

I suppose we'll get over it.

It is beautiful.


Last night I made this Peruvian-Chinese fried rice with chicken and avocado and cilantro and green onions and a mess of pickled red onions. The woman on the verge picked it out, and it was a stunner. We had my Mom and Step-father over and there is still about ten pounds of the stuff left.

It were good.


Maybe something is happening or going to happen.

I feel like I am in limbo...





Blogger Marylinn Kelly said...

Feels limbo-ish here; dreams of consolation and messages from the departed. That they are still, really departed upon waking feels like fresh loss. I hope the beautiful table may be comfortably assimilated into family life.

4:43 PM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...


I guess you don't really enter into the world until you've lost someone. A loss that threatens to unseat your mind.

We who are left behind must tend the fires.

Soon enough it will be our turn to leave someone else bereft.

If we have loved well enough.

wishing you all the best-


4:52 PM  
Blogger Radish King said...

Lost. Every day lately I feel like I'm going to die. Like those little girls oh god those three little girls.

8:49 AM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...

those girls.

i don't know that anybody else would take that menace in the same way, but you know things.

secret things.

bad things.

I believe that we must go into the darkness. we, who have some measure of strength, must do for those who cannot.

You are doing such a thing.

And I can only cheer you on. Though it cost you, as it must. Though it demand of you what you would not give, give it you must.

They are all counting on us.



6:32 PM  

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