Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Domestic Interior


Ah, me. 

I don't know what to do.  


Trust, faith, love, betrayal, ego, fear, clinging, stupidity, anger, loss, longing. 

I got the whole enchilada.


In other news, the Large Hadron Collider seems to be up and running. But it's only running proton streams in one direction.

No collisions that way.


We always get sucked back in to the human drama. We are hungry for it. I am hungry for it. I want to be loved. I want to be understood and held blameless.

but who is blameless among us?

Not I.

Perhaps the more blameworthy we are, the more we seek not to be held accountable.


I had this lecture with my kid today, how there's no escape from the consequences of our bad acts. How it doesn't matter if the universe "catches" you doing wrong. If you don't get 'caught', you still don't get away with anything. 

The whole universe conspires to help you learn this lesson.

Physician, heal thyself. 


I'm full of good advice.


and shit.


ego, ego, ego, ego, ego, ego, ego, ego, ego, ego, ego, ego. me me me me me me me.


Same old story.


Love is the answer. Love is the default position. 

Ah, but I am in a foul mood, and would turn my face from the light and curse.

And curse.



Blogger LKD said...

Everyone's worried that the collider will create a black hole that will swallow the earth, but apparently it will only be capable of creating tiny black holes that won't possess enough energy to grow very big and they'll ultimately collapse and disappear.

And really, isn't that what ego is, friend?

A tiny black hole that's trying all the time to grow, to suck all the energy and light outta everyone and everything around it?

I love you, human being.

I love you, human, being.

I mean that.

8:36 PM  
Blogger tearful dishwasher said...

Hey, Laurel-

Thanks. I know you mean it. And you know I mean it right back.

We need love bad around here. This world, I mean.



11:15 AM  

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